Fresh Start

I woke up this morning to a brand new day but my heart is heavy and I can't seem to understand why. May be its all the pressure of another school term or its just stress from my every day life. I honestly don't know what to think but I just feel down today. I feel like the only girl in the world at this moment and I hate feel like that but I'm strong so I must keep moving. My day today is going to be a very long one with school and doing some last minute shopping for the Thanksgiving Holiday. I wish I could skip my classes today but I need as much practice as I can get on my vocal pieces. Sometimes I wonder why I choose music to be my profession but then I remember how much its makes me happy and how much I enjoy singing and playing the clarinet. For me I had no other choice but to do music I couldn't see myself doing anything else.
I realize that I have never been good at anything else other than music and I have tired many other professions but it never gave me a feel of total bliss like music does. Anyways I am off to school and hopefully my day will pick up and become brighter.

Kisses
Erulisse

A New Day

I have been on a journey to find myself and what I want in my life. This journey has taking me on a train ride of endless tears, smiles and plenty of laughter.
It took me 27 years to realize the kind of woman and person I want to be. I had to learn how to love myself for who I am with all my faults. I had to be reborn into this new person who now understand who she is and what she deserves in life. I took the time out to find my place in this world and I found that I am a wonderful person who has been hurt so many times by those I love but I keep pushing on and that shows just how strong of a person I am. So at the end of the day all that I have been through has led me to be a strong black woman. I am back now and I hope that I continue to blog my journey into being a better person who can impact the life of the people I meet.

This Journey

I’m going on a journey so far so far, far away lol. I have been on a journey for the past 8 years trying to forget the terrible things that have happened to me. For time heals all wounds. Yea right that’s a fucking lie. My journey has been a difficult one and maybe if I had some common sense to forget how hurt I am then it would be better. But hell no I will not forget and I certainly won’t forgive. I hate the one who hurt me I wish him nothing but the worst things possible. I wish he was suffering as much as I suffer every day. Deal with depression, nightmares and the sexual frustration because I am scared to even let some one touch me. My life has been fucked up this journey has not even been a good one. I am sick of it sick of every thing.

What are friends for?

In the real world we have people in our life’s who we call friends but are they really your friends. Do you ever notice when those so called friends need you to be there for them you are but when you need them you can’t seem to find them or they always have some excuse to why you couldn’t find them.
Well those friends I don’t want in my life.
I think we all need to take sometime to look at the people in our life’s and do a reflection on all the situations we go through and if those friends are never there for you do the best thing you can ever do and that drop there worthless asses.
If they can’t be there for you to help you or guide you then you don’t need them.
Also look at your self cause this might apply.

Hey

WELCOME
PLEASE MAKE YOUR SELF AT HOME AND ENJOY ALL THE LUXURY OF MY HUMBLE HOME LOL.
I AM SO GLAD TO FINALLY HAVE A BLOG NOW I CAN TALK ABOUT ALL THATS GOING ON IN MY CRAZY LIFE.